"i spent so many years believing i was unworthy and unloveable. i isolated and missed out on so much. college, friendships, relationships, employment etc. mental illness is serious and i wish it wasn’t so stigmatized. i’m doing so much better after my last hospitalization late 2022 and it’s crazy to think about how unhealthy i was and how i didn’t have self respect or love for myself. how i allowed myself to be manipulated, to settle for toxicity but also be unhealthy towards others.
i’m so thankful for my recovery journey. i feel like i got a second chance at life. i can never give up. i finally learned what it’s like to love myself and i want to be strong for the people in my life. but ultimately, i wish to inspire hope and change in others. the marginalized communities. no one should feel alone. empathy needs to be more common in society. we are all human suffering of something others don’t know about.
i will continue to keep growing, to not feel as if only darkness consumes me and that my sensitivity is a curse but to overcome and keep moving forward, to shine my light with those around me.
that is my dream.
